One Apple A Day #720 - finding my centre
When do I feel centred?
How can I know when I am fully present to myself?
I always thought the only way to find my centre, to become present to myself was through solitude, silence and stillness.
So, I committed to a morning practice of silence and stillness. Every morning I find a comfortable position, I set aside any distractions, I close my eyes, and I move my attention to my breathing. I just stay for a few minutes. In the beginning, I was trying hard to not think. Then I realized that resisting was useless and tiring, so I just let everything flow.
Yet, more often than not, I don't feel I find my centre. Sure, usually I got some good ideas out of that morning moments. My mind can be quite creative once it's freed from the things to do.
But that sense of presence? I'm not sure.
The other day, I was talking about these things with a fantastic coach. She told me that when we are present to ourselves, we feel energized and things flow more naturally.
The curious thing is that in that exact moment, I was feeling energized and in a state of flow. Yet, I was talking with someone. Not really the idea of solitary silence and stillness I thought was necessary.
All of this to say that everyone may have a different and unique way to find their centre. Just pay attention to what makes you feel energized, and what depletes your energy.