One Apple A Day #70
I have a confession to make.
I have a problem with goals. More than one, to be honest.
I’m lazy, undisciplined and I would never include willpower in my list of best skills. I also have a vivid imagination that can create beautiful goals but can also create great excuses.
So, I started a lot of projects but I finish only a few. When I was younger I minimised the problem increasing the amount of projects I started. More goals, more results even if the success ratio is low. Growing up it was clear that this strategy wasn’t really a strategy. I started feeling delusional. Worst of all, with so many goals I lost the perception of what I really want, of what I really love. I needed a change. But how? Setting another goal?
Sometimes, life has its own magic way of throwing out a helping hand. I had an opportunity to go away from almost everything for a year. My partner had this good opportunity in a Middle-East country. We decided to give it a go and we also agreed that I would have not seek a job.
I put on hold all of my goals and I focused only on rethinking my future. I thought that one of the first steps to do, was to understand what was wrong in my relation with goals, and achievements in general.
I started reading books and blogs, I bought program and online classes, I researched outside and inside of me.
In the meanwhile, I had to find a way to avoid the risk of getting bored and fat. The place where we moved can be quite boring, in particular during the summer. Most of the people come here to work, but I wasn’t working so I need to find other ways to keep me busy.
This is the first problem. I did some sports in the past. I run, I swam, I did pilates, I went to a gym. Nothing really stick for long. A part from swimming, but that was mainly because it was something I shared with my partner.
There’s a gym in the building and, because I like to train in the morning, I thought it was a good idea to use it.
To be continued …