One Apple A Day #303
Allowing Yourself to be Ambiguous.
I’ve always been an avid consumer of stories.
My mom says that when she didn’t know where to find me, I was probably hiding in a corner lost in a book.
My favourites stories where the one where the protagonist was undoubtedly good and the antagonist was evil.
No ambiguity.
The reality was complicated, so I needed a safe place to hide, a place where I could dispense the good from the bad, the winner from the losers and so on.
I’ve been like that for a long time, even when I enter my adulthood.
I was very judgemental, putting everything and everyone in boxes.
The good ones on one side, the bad ones on the other.
Naturally, I had my reserved sit on the right side.
Until I realised I wasn’t so good.
The first crack appeared when someone who was supposed to sit with me on the good guys’ bench, did something wrong (as I said, I was very judgmental).
Everything fell apart when I discover that the one doing something wrong, was me.
It was a tough moment in my life.
But from those dark days, I came out with plenty of colours.
Human beings are so beautifully complex, nebulous and infinite.
Each one of us is a mysterious universe.
Yet we have a strong need to classify everything and everyone.
Today’s invitation is to allow ourselves to be ambiguous, to enjoy the pleasure of having blurry boundaries, to not knowing what we will do.