One Apple A Day #264
Today’s apple is literally flying out from the sky. I’m a few thousand km above the ground, in my moderately comfortable sit with hundreds of people travelling to Mumbai.
Due the adverse weather conditions in Paris we have three hours of delay. I will arrive in Mumbai for, the first time in my life, in the middle of night and I’ll probably be in my room at dawn.
But this is not what is filling my stomach with butterflies.
What keeps me well awake despite being around since 4 am this morning, is the feeling of being on the verge of definition moment.
The first time I heard the expression “definition moment” was in the movie Tin Cup, with Don Johnson. I know, my taste for movies is debatable, but I like to think that there is something to learn from everything. In this case it was when the protagonist explain that a definition moment is one of those moments when you have two options; or you define the moment, or the moment defines you.
The point is that in both case there is no guarantee that the outcome will be what you expect. The what is always uncertain. But in a definition moment, it is all about the who not the what.
We all have plenty of definition moments in our life. They are all those moments when you face a choice. Become who you want to be or let the moment decide it.
The funny thing is that, most of the time, nothing will change around you. The world rarely cares about our definition moments. They are irrelevant for everyone but us. You will know, in your gut, if you have defined the moment or if you have let the moment define you.
So, here I am. I made a choice a few months. I decided to take a leap of faith and jump outside my comfort zone.
It all started about one year ago. I came home from my wonderful trip in Patagonia with a question in my head. “Is it all here? Is there anything more to my life?”.
I decided to start my quest for an answer. I search everywhere, within and without me. I stretched the boundaries of my mind, my heart and my soul in this search. But somehow I always kept a link with my previous life. With the one I was.
When a few months ago I enrolled for this training class I thought it was only another step of my quest. But Today, while my fear was growing in my body, I understood that it is more than that. It is a definition moment. It is the time for me to make a choice. To cut the safety cord connecting me to my past way of being and fully embrace my true being.
This is what keep me awake.
Will I have the courage to define the moment?