One Apple A Day #1227
Sometimes, I want a result, but I despise the work needed to get that result. So, obviously, I don't get the result I want.
I have plenty of examples and stories from my past.
Like, I wanted to become a musician, I dreamed about becoming a rock star and playing on stages worldwide. But I never found the will and discipline to properly learn to play an instrument and join a band. I learnt to strum the guitar enough to play sometimes with friends, and that was it.
So, I often ask myself, why is that?
Over the years, I came up with many different reasons.
In some cases, it wasn't really a true yearning of my soul. It was more the desire to imitate someone or to achieve something I felt would make me look better in the eyes of others. Then, there's the lack of willpower and discipline. I did part of the journey on a few things but gave up when it was becoming serious.
When I was in my thirties, I wanted to write a book titled "Unfinished" or "Interrupted" because I felt I was becoming a master in "not finishing" anything I started.
Yet, here I am. Writing and publishing the post number 1227. Not bad for someone who lacks the discipline to go a long way.
Still, I feel it's not finished.
And this made me realize two things.
First, nothing is ever finished. As Leonardo Da Vinci said, "Art is never finished, just abandoned."
Second, all the abandoned journeys contributed to the person I am today. In the end, life is a never-ending prototype.