There are still many situations in which I struggle to be fully me.
I leave out parts of who I am, of what I believe and do. I downplay my work.
I know it's an old reflex rooted in the fear of not being accepted.
When I was a child, I learned the art of not standing out to avoid the risk of being mocked or refused.
Though, even if now I'm well aware of this block, I still have a long way to walk before I overcome it. Being aware of something is the first step but not enough to change it.
Pressure and time. That's what it takes to change.
Little by little, step by step, through daily, consistent practice, I'm getting where I want.
Funny enough, I have no problem in being whole in this writing bubble of mine. A tiny space in which I'm pretty exposed. I also have some conversations going on in which I feel I can bring all of me.
All these places are fundamentals for my growth.
They are the spaces in which I can practice being me.
Is there any part of you that you're leaving out? If so, do you have a place where you can practice being wholly you?