An appointment with yourself
We each have an appointment with ourselves, though most of us never show up for it. — Dr. James Hollis.
To have an appointment with oneself is such a powerful image. It sums up all the emotions I feel at this stage of my life: the anticipation, the fear, the expectations, the doubts.
On one side, there is me, wanting to meet my creative self, unsure if he will be like the person I imagine, if he will have the answers I'm looking for, and if I'm ready for those answers.
On the other side, my creative self is waiting, wondering if I'll show up and be up for the task.
I can't help but think about how often I didn't show up, and I left my creative self waiting in vain, getting tired and disappointed. How long will he be willing to wait for me? How long before he gets tired and gives up?
This little practice I do every morning is my way of showing up to my creative self. Sometimes, it's just to say hi; other times, we have meaningful conversations. I've learned that as long as I keep showing up, my creative self is willing to wait. And if I'm lucky, he may open up and share some glimpses of wisdom to help me learn a bit more about myself.
You probably have appointments scheduled with your coworkers, doctor, accountant, partner, friends, etc.
Have you scheduled any appointments with yourself?