#1422 - Not knowing is a practice
I have so many unformed and confused ideas in my mind right now. There's quite a mess in my head at the moment.
Half-formed ideas that are not ready to get out yet, like the feeling that everything must look perfect and wonderful for toddlers. So, what happens next? I don't know, and I don't know where to start.
And then there are those concepts that keep coming back because I keep forgetting I already wrote about them, like the idea of the common good that may be not so common or not so good.
There are also words and sentences for which I can feel the power, but I struggle to see where they want me to go. When I sat down to write, all of a sudden, I saw the sentence, "You are born with infinite potential".
Where can I go from there?
I don't know right now.
So, the only thing I can do is to stay with my not knowing. Give it space and time to do its work instead of trying hard to cast it away with anything known and reassuring.
It's easier said than done, however.
I have to make an effort to ignore the voice in my head saying that not knowing is no good because you, on the other side of these words, are expecting something more than my not knowing.
I mean, not knowing usually does not sound good in school or work.
Not knowing is a practice.