#1368 - becoming whole
Being whole means having all the proper parts or components, seemingly complete, with no gaps or missing particulars. But it also means to be in an unbroken or undamaged state.
For a long time, I thought that to become whole, I had to find and add what was missing. Learn what I didn't know, acquire what I didn't have, see new places, meet new people, etc. As if the pieces I needed to complete myself were all out there in the world, and my task was to find them.
Yet, it didn't work. No matter how many pieces I added, something was always missing preventing me from feeling whole. Sometimes, this adding process even made things worse and pulled me away from wholeness.
I've learned that we are born whole. Then, growing up, we become divided into fragments, adding layers between all the different parts of ourselves. When we add new things to our lives, too often, we create new layers or expand the existing ones, making ourselves even more divided.
When I realised that, I began to practice subtraction to remove those layers and obstacles, so I could reconnect with all the parts of myself and feel whole again. And when new things come into my life, I check within what they feed; my soul or my divides?