#1236 - I am all
This morning I listened to a guided meditation by Dora Kamau. It is called To Be Both.
It made me reflect on how many times, with the desire to feel whole, I try to reduce myself to one thing.
I can't be at the same time happy and sad, angry and in love, fearful and hopeful.
Yet, I often am.
I constantly experience such dualities in my life. Often, it's even more than just a duality. It is a caleidoscope.
And it's so easy to feel lost and confused amidst all these facets and contrasting colours.
When the confusion is too much, I work hard to find order in chaos. There must be one right facet, one pole in all these dualities that define me.
So, I reflect and meditate to find order and peace with no success.
Anytime I think I have found the one thing that is me, I feel even more lost. Again, a new duality, feeling lost and in the right place simultaneously.
So, this is my practice for today.
To welcome all the parts of me.
To recognize that I am all of them, even when they are opposites.
To allow myself to be fragmented and whole at the same time.
I am all; I am whole.