#1235 - Channel
I am an author.
I like to say it and write it.
Yet, at the same time, it scares me.
Any time I say that I am something, the doubts begin.
Is it true? Is that what I truly am? Who am I to say it?
Such is the power of labels and words.
Words create worlds.
They have immense creative power.
Our labels should say more about who we want to become than who we are or have been. They should be the light leading our way forward, more than the one we already walked.
That's why saying that I'm an author scares me.
It's a promise and a commitment.
Will I be able to realize it?
In the meantime, I write.
And every word is a step forward in my becoming.
However, something else scares me when I use the word author, speaking of myself.
It's the idea that I am the source of my words.
It's a trick of my ego telling me that I am the origin of what I write.
Anytime I listen to that voice, I become entangled in self-judgment.
What will the readers think?
When that happens, the words stop flowing.
So, I have to pause, take a deep breath and remind myself that I am just a channel. Words emerge through me, not from me.
And then, they start flowing again.
That is being an author for me.